Another year down in the books..

"Moonlight illuminate my night and my days sunray make the people say
Had a vision somethings missing so they're screaming out loud
Keep my feet on ground and my head in the clouds.
I'm the arrow, you're my bow, shoot me forth and I will go
And I know and I go and I go get up and go "

Well, i havent updated this recently..But i figured this would be the time.. today is my 23rd and I have recenlty in the passed few weeks have had some ups and downs, gains and losses.. how do you outweigh the pros or cons to both? hard hard i must say,you get to that point where you get to take a step forward and then something happens that makes you have to take 2 steps back. So now that im this new age.. has anything changed? Not really yet but a # is all, But i do see me flourishing into a better person than i once was.. It sometimes takes a hard loss to sit u back and realize WHOA. Really will put things in perspective for you. I just recently landed a job ive been waiting on for the passed month and a half, i work for a great family and i couldn thave asked for a better job. As far as job and money things are good..

Do i miss someone? most definiently.. These passed few weeks while i was on spring break had been rough im not going to lie. But what i didnt realize over the passed year I have learned alot about myself and was able to develope an amazing realtionship with someone who I had seen in my eyes as pretty much Irreplaceable. but i guess sometimes things happend and things abrubtly come to a hault. Im not going to lie its very rough and its unfortunate. But on the other hand even tho things didnt work out, I am overly greatful for the time i had with this person and the bond we had because, she honestly made me a better person. Lifes always throwing us these curve balls to see where we stand and how we deal with situations and help us overcome obsticles. But im going to take things for what they are worth and just let life take its course.. because that is really all we can do, Live in the moment because we are not promised anything. that there is something that took me a while to honestly learn. But i still from time to time think about her and miss her, and would love to just pick up my phone and call her just to hear hear voice..... but i cant...she was a huge and still is a big part of my life.. well thats my rant for the night... goodnight

Understanding yourself and the lord better

Take this life- Paul Wright


Do you ever think that you hold yourself up to the worlds standards? Do you try to carry the worlds weight on your shoulders? Im going to be honest and say "yes i do". I expect too much out of mysef at times. I strive so hard to be what I think is "perfect". First off i believe perfect is a word used to much and widely missused. After all OJ was aquitted of a trial and served no time in prison and people said that was "perfect". when i would consider the word perfect and OJ . perfect would be used sarcastically ha. But you cannot, and i repeat YOU CANNOT hold yourself up to the worlds standards. Thats just too much weight for one to bare. Life is what you make of it. No matter what you do or people say you ultimately have the decision on which way you guide your life. You can live your life on gods word and cherishing everything you get out of it. Or you can be a stray from the lord.

You must not try to stray from the lord, despite the things that happen with you or the things that are going on in your life. Those are times we need him the most. After all Jesus died for us because we are not perfect. And lets face it.. we will never be perfect, when we pass on and get to the gates. God will ask you "did u do my work that i had intended for you? did you live the life that you believe was the right path in gods word?".. When you get there what will be your response? Then when you think to yourself.. Did u really do the best you could? did you really live in the word? If u answerd yes to these and honestly believe in your heart you did the best you can to fulfill gods words, glorified him and felt that spiritual connection? but if u can honestly say YES then you did your best. But lets be honest here, not everyone thinks this way or acts liek this. Unfortunately we all at one point in our lives stray..

When we stray, that is when we are at our weakest and most voulnerable moments. I believe we do this because we are afraid of the unknown. Or we just have to much in our lives to actually sit back and think and be like "whoa.. god never left us.. why are we leaving him now". So do not excessively worry about how things are going.

Matthew 6:34

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

Matthew 6:34 is right this statement i hold dearly to my heart. God put us here to do good things for people and to follow his word. When you lose sight of that image. We forget why we are here and what are purpose is. Theres no need to get caught up in the small petty things in life or the material things that dont matter, those are the times when we stray.

So after all dont let life get you down, because there is more to world. Trust in god and he will never steer you wrong.

thats it for my first post kids