Another year down in the books..

"Moonlight illuminate my night and my days sunray make the people say
Had a vision somethings missing so they're screaming out loud
Keep my feet on ground and my head in the clouds.
I'm the arrow, you're my bow, shoot me forth and I will go
And I know and I go and I go get up and go "

Well, i havent updated this recently..But i figured this would be the time.. today is my 23rd and I have recenlty in the passed few weeks have had some ups and downs, gains and losses.. how do you outweigh the pros or cons to both? hard hard i must say,you get to that point where you get to take a step forward and then something happens that makes you have to take 2 steps back. So now that im this new age.. has anything changed? Not really yet but a # is all, But i do see me flourishing into a better person than i once was.. It sometimes takes a hard loss to sit u back and realize WHOA. Really will put things in perspective for you. I just recently landed a job ive been waiting on for the passed month and a half, i work for a great family and i couldn thave asked for a better job. As far as job and money things are good..

Do i miss someone? most definiently.. These passed few weeks while i was on spring break had been rough im not going to lie. But what i didnt realize over the passed year I have learned alot about myself and was able to develope an amazing realtionship with someone who I had seen in my eyes as pretty much Irreplaceable. but i guess sometimes things happend and things abrubtly come to a hault. Im not going to lie its very rough and its unfortunate. But on the other hand even tho things didnt work out, I am overly greatful for the time i had with this person and the bond we had because, she honestly made me a better person. Lifes always throwing us these curve balls to see where we stand and how we deal with situations and help us overcome obsticles. But im going to take things for what they are worth and just let life take its course.. because that is really all we can do, Live in the moment because we are not promised anything. that there is something that took me a while to honestly learn. But i still from time to time think about her and miss her, and would love to just pick up my phone and call her just to hear hear voice..... but i cant...she was a huge and still is a big part of my life.. well thats my rant for the night... goodnight